The Meaning of life

The meaning of life, or purpose for living for different people may vary. For some the meaning of life is religion. However for others it may be for example, meeting they’re friends, visiting they’re family. Or for example doing they’re hobbies and passion. For some maybe playing the piano is they’re meaning of life.

Without a meaning of life, we can feel lost, drained, unwilling to live, to do normal things. Because maybe we ask ourselves, why live? What is the point of suffering through just to later go through more pain. We may loose interest in things we used to love. Loose interest in the people we used to love. And loose the love to live.

Problem solvers

The thing is, we are problem solvers, us as humans. We are made to solve things and then learn. Think of something that was unpleasant in your life, like for an example your bestest friend leaving you. With what did that leave you? you might think, nothing. But I think a lesson, each person, opportunity we loose. We learn. We know better next time, if we never did mistakes, we would never evolve. You cant be good at something without first failing, being bad at it. We don’t just get born being good at a subject, or being a good friend, partner, we learn how to.

I remember when I lost a best friend of mine, I was devastated. I was so hurt, agitated and wanted to be best friends with her again. Yet I hadn’t realized how toxic we both were to one another. After hurt, I was glad, and relief we hadn’t been best friends, I realized I wasn’t happy in the friendship, and neither was she. If I hadn’t I would’ve been stuck in a toxic friendship, I wouldn’t have learned how to be a better friend myself. What things to do and not to.

The way I see it, is every person you stopped being friends/hanging out with, was a lesson, is a lesson.

I stopped having a meaning of life

A few months ago, I stopped believing in God. I never had strong faith in him, I just believed because thats how I was raised. I was raised to go to church and to rely on God. But I never really believed in God. I had stopped believing completely I blamed him for each bad thing inn my life.

Blaming god for bad things

I don’t blame God for any of the bad things that happen now, because at the moment they may seem bad, like loosing a friend, but then I learn. Or if it is bad and not a lesson, I don’t blame God, because he has no control over people. He can guide you if you believe in him, guide you to right decisions. But if he could control everyone, there wouldn’t be war, starvation. But there is, because he cannot control such things.

Once I stopped believing I had no motivation. I began being meaner and more careless towards my friends and family. I took stuff for granted, I fell behind on school work, I had no will to live. It wasn’t the best of my time in life. However my mom pleaded me to go church. And so I had went, although I felt guilty going to a place of worship of someone I didn’t believe in. The mass was 45 minutes long, and it was the first time in a long time when I felt at peace. When I felt calm, I had came back home, and felt better, I went again the next week, and the week after, the third time I went, I had realized multiple things.

What I had realized

How I said I didn’t believe in God yet I said everything happens for a reason. And what is responsible for that?

How I said I didn’t believe in God yet said everything will work out eventually. Yet what is responsible for that?

Beginning to ask myself questions about my belief

I began asking myself big questions, ones which there was no scientific explanation to. As the whole downfall of my faith in God, was because I didn’t have faith, I was looking at the realistic and scientific point of view. Sometimes the stories in the bible, the things they say in church the things they learn you about God. They may not always seem believable, but that what faith is. Believing nonetheless of the facts.

Beginning to believe once again

And I began believing again, I put my trust in God, put the scientific and realistic point of view away, and believed. I believed, and had faith. I began trusting God, that each time I’d fall on knees he would bring me back up on my feet like he always has. That he would lead me to the right door like he always has. That he would guard me, and when it would be my time to go, id go. Safe in his embrace.

I used to be afraid of death, but no more. I don’t know what will happen to me once I am dead. But what I do believe is, when it will be my time, I will be safe and with God.

I began..

After I had began to believe, it was like, he shone a light into the deep dark pit I was in. Threw a ladder down for me to climb up it.

I began being more calm, and at peace,

to appreciate my friends, my self

to appreciate each small time with my parents.

as I figured not to take time for granted.

Enjoying the small things

I began enjoying the smallest of moments. How the sun fell in through my curtains, lighting up my whole room in the mornings. Or the foggy cold breezy mornings I walked to school in. Or the drive back to school on the bus, happy and grateful that I could have the education I have. Because we take life for granted. So much people are dead, they cant embrace the beauty of this world, the kindness of most humans. I count myself as lucky, to be alive.

To be able to breath properly, to be able to walk and speak and hear and see. As numerous people do not have those abilities. I am lucky for having a family and friends and a roof above my head. A bed to sleep in, and a room to wake up in. We take these things for granted because they are normal for US. But there are people, various people out there. Who don’t have these things we call “simple”, yet things they call “special”.

God, my religion is my meaning of life. Going to church each Sunday, and being present, not stuck in the yesterday or tomorrow, just being with god. Having god by my side, is like having a best friend but more. A guardian.

Having friends, lungs, family, a home. food on my plate. Things I am grateful for, and things which also. Alongside God, give my life meaning.

Which is what brings me to the end of this article, and I want to tell you. To appreciate, the small things, to remember that in your darkest times, that darkness is temporary, to remember that everything happens for a reason, even if things don’t really make sense to you right now. To smile, be kind even if you are barely able to. No matter what and who you believe in, or what you don’t believe in.